5|29|2016
i'm 5'6" & can't stand under my airstream's shower head.
which is more like a hand held wand hooked to the shower wall. i can sit on bambi's shower bench though. but there, the water only hits my left shoulder. so, with one hand i detach the wand from the bracket...& with the other, i scrub a dub dub. the little wand has an on & off switch. which i hadn't planned on using until i start boon docking {which is glamping without water or sewer or electric hookups. that means you... have to be careful about how much water you use or you won't have any at all}.
as i was singing & scrubbing, i didn't notice the bubbles at the shower floor hid 2 inches of standing water. while i was thinking heavenly thoughts about smelling like coconut body wash, i had missed the memo that my grey tank was full. again. so full, that the already used icky water backed up the drain & into the shower, then covered my clean little feet. ewwww. stop. ewww. that tank just fills soooo fast.
i tapped on the drain with my better tapping foot {the right one}, attempting to plunge that water into the tank. but, that wasn't going to happen because it is impossible. so, mid scrub, i turned that switch off & i did the unthinkable. you know, scrub...then rinse & scrub...then rinse. i know. it wasn't actually horrible at all. it's just a different version of my dream shower & that dream feels like a waterfall is falling on me.
as each day passes & i live this life...it washes away all the years i told myself that i wasn't brave enough or smart enough or handy enough. i feel sad that i ever said such mean things to me. but, if learning self-love is the secret to life...i can tell you that learning self-forgiveness is too. i wonder why i didn't listen to my inner tinkerbell. why didn't i do this sooner. why did i try for years, to be like everyone else. why didn't i let myself be me. be different. be crazy. be wild & free.
when i took a leap on leap day, & moved into a 19' airstream, exactly 3 months ago...i finally allowed me to be wild & free. you have to know what your sleepy tired soul feels like...to know when you've found something special & rare. when you find something, anything, that makes that sparkly soul of yours shine...follow it.
follow everything that is special & rare. chase everything that awakens your soul. be nice to you, be okay with being you, say you're sorry to you, forgive you, believe in you, then go find you. trust me, you'll love her.
yes, yes, yes.
wild heart • gypsy soul
xoxo, miss airstream